They're the same thing, really. Over and over again I find that God truly is the only one. How many times will it take for this to be cemented into my brain? I'm such a selfish, moping fool, I don't deserve God's love, but nevertheless I know that He does love me, unconditionally. I just can't imagine how good He is. His grace is enough, for all of us. Onerepublic is wrong, it's never too late to apologize. I feel like I've regained what I once had, my closeness to God. I admit I was drifting for a while, but I'm here now. I'm back from my "near life experience", even if it's not all the way over, and even if I am struggling and fighting this battle with myself, God is on my side, fighting along with me. I feel His presence so strong I expect to look behind my shoulder and see Him. I believe He is there, right behind me. I feel stripped down to my core. I've been so...worried about the world. But no more! I WILL be happy, and no one can take that away from me!! I will be STRONG! I can make it, I will make it. This is who I'm supposed to be, happy to be in love, with God.
So I'm seriously considering going on a mission. It's the only way I feel I can put in my time to the building up of God's kingdom, which we have been told is the reason we are here. I won't be a worthless soul, I will mean something and act on what I know. I'll spread the gospel and make other people as happy as I am. For me, it's impossible to be happy if I'm not one with God.
So, I'll get over this guy I've been so obsessed with. I'll be happy with my own self and what I know I do have. My God, my family, my scriptures....the only three things I have. Nothing else matters ♥
Jon Foreman, lead-singer of Switchfoot. His solo album, Limbs and Branches, is AMAZING. I have listened to only the first few songs and they have brought the spirit so strongly. This is where it's at, in the music world. "Why do I worry, why do I freak out? God knows what I need, you know what I need. Your love is, your love is strong."
Jon Foreman- Your Love is Strong
The Cure For Pain
I love all my friends, they're great. I haven't appreciated them like I should. So, I'm saying this now, I love you! :)
I miss my sister, I need her here. I love you. Sorry I was such a butt when you came down to visit.
2 comments:
I LOVE this!! God is love and he will ALWAYS be there for you and wrap you in his arms when you need a good cry. He ROCKS!!! As do you. Keep smiling and hangin in there. I miss you a million red M&M's.
Maybe you can come here for part of the summer again?? It will be here before ya know it!
And yes, I mission would be amazing!!
Yeah, that'd be awesome! :D
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